My secret isn't...it isn't a secret really, but just a painful observation. And that's that people don't seem to care about my opinion, even though I'm one of the few people who seems to have one, or at least the nerve to express it. But maybe it's because...not influential. Are influential and popular synonymous? Must you be one to be another?
I think some people are under the impression that I shove my opinion down people's throats, thought I beg to differ. When people are trying to understand me but feel intimidated by my incessant persistence to get them to see the way I do, that's different. THAT is shoving my opinion down people's throats. But I don't do that! I haven't! Whenever I try to talk about an important issue, people roll their eyes and block me out! They won't stand to hear it! I know that some of my friends don't even like me much anymore because of my rants. But it's not like I'm forcing them on anybody. Just because somebody disagrees with me doesn't mean they have to accuse me of bigotry and then ignore me! The problem is just that! I begin to discuss something, but by the time I get to the part that people MUST hear, the part that is the entire point of my going off in the first place, the moral of the story if you will, I know I am being tuned out. How do I prevent this? How do I get people to want to know what I have to say? How do I speak, but ensure that I being heard?
Obviously, if this really is a problem, no one will know much about it, since this IS my blog, and this IS what I want people to know about me. And if somebody is actually reading this, I thank you.
Did you know that before I decided to just keep up with a written blog entirely (okay, typed, same difference), I wanted to express myself with vlogs? As in, video blogging. But I would record myself going on spools...even though vocalizing is not one of my talents. Writing is. I don't often stumble over words when I write. I can usually get my idea across quite clearly, whereas when I speak, I never seem certain about what I am saying, even if I am. I had to take speech class in kindergarten, but since it had been determined that I hadn't needed much, they lasted a mere six months. But as shown later in life, I had.
But why does it matter when I've got two functional hands to type and a keyboard? All I'm asking for is an audience.
I think some people are under the impression that I shove my opinion down people's throats, thought I beg to differ. When people are trying to understand me but feel intimidated by my incessant persistence to get them to see the way I do, that's different. THAT is shoving my opinion down people's throats. But I don't do that! I haven't! Whenever I try to talk about an important issue, people roll their eyes and block me out! They won't stand to hear it! I know that some of my friends don't even like me much anymore because of my rants. But it's not like I'm forcing them on anybody. Just because somebody disagrees with me doesn't mean they have to accuse me of bigotry and then ignore me! The problem is just that! I begin to discuss something, but by the time I get to the part that people MUST hear, the part that is the entire point of my going off in the first place, the moral of the story if you will, I know I am being tuned out. How do I prevent this? How do I get people to want to know what I have to say? How do I speak, but ensure that I being heard?
Obviously, if this really is a problem, no one will know much about it, since this IS my blog, and this IS what I want people to know about me. And if somebody is actually reading this, I thank you.
Did you know that before I decided to just keep up with a written blog entirely (okay, typed, same difference), I wanted to express myself with vlogs? As in, video blogging. But I would record myself going on spools...even though vocalizing is not one of my talents. Writing is. I don't often stumble over words when I write. I can usually get my idea across quite clearly, whereas when I speak, I never seem certain about what I am saying, even if I am. I had to take speech class in kindergarten, but since it had been determined that I hadn't needed much, they lasted a mere six months. But as shown later in life, I had.
But why does it matter when I've got two functional hands to type and a keyboard? All I'm asking for is an audience.
1 comment:
Well you got one reader right here, if that means anything. And don't worry, they'll(as in the people who don't listen or care) will see someday when you become a famous novelist. I'm not just saying that, either, because I'm your friend. It's just what you were born to do. Simple as that.
If only it were that easy for everyone to find their ideal career....
-Selena
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