How the hell do you sleep at night? And a more pressing question is, why do you work with kids when it's obvious you fucking hate them? Why anybody would ever want to be in charge of a bunch of hormonal, pubescent, smack-talking kids is beyond me. This is what your life has resorted to and it must be really sad being you.
But it is not you I give a fuck about. Jump off a bridge for all I care. What I want to know is why you think you can have any position of power in a government-funded system when you have no god damn clue about the rights of American citizens - yes, even the preteen ones. Or maybe you do, but just have a sick need for power and control, no matter how insignificant it is, and get pleasure in censoring the voices of the children who so conveniently for you are unaware of the rights granted to them by the Constitution, and more specifically, the first amendment.
For not only did you violate my freedom of speech, you tried to get at me for expressing my religious beliefs at the time. And while those beliefs were temporary and out of curiosity, I had every right to explore them. Yet it was because of your ignorance an bigoted conservatism that I was written up for it. After all, if the Christian kids are allowed to wear their crosses and say their prayers, why isn't a Pagan allowed to absent-mindedly doodle her religious symbol? And not only did I doodle it, but I wrote peaceful slogans on it, such as, "Wicca is NOT Satanism" and "Wicca appreciates the natural world." And still - STILL - I was written up for "offensive Satanic material." How fucking BLIND are you people? It was right there in plain English for you! Besides, even if I was making Satanic remarks, so what? Satanists don't actually worship the Satan YOU believe in. It wasn't as if I was hurting anybody. "Offensive?" That sheet of paper was trying to teach people, to bring them out of their delusional superstitions. It was my religion, my beliefs. I don't get offended when people express their religious beliefs (as offensive Christianity in itself is), so I would expect the same respect, even though my beliefs aren't the same. But instead, I am punished. If Wicca wasn't a peaceful religion and that disallowed evil, curses on you!
My 8th grade history teacher, when I told her about the incident, totally patronized me after dragging me into the hallway. She defended the administration, and told me that I had no place in seeking religion as I was too young and naive to get into that business. She said I was just trying to be trendy and I ought to just give it up then. I was hurt immensely and felt completely discriminated against. Young? Yeah. Naive? Of course. Trying to be trendy? Perhaps, though it didn't seem that way at the time. But an American whose expressions ought to have been protected by the Constitution? Above all. Amazing that my U.S. History teacher didn't recognize this.
That is totally not even the end.
There was another occasion that you completely forgot first amendment rights. One day at lunch, my friends and I took a poll asking people whether they supported gay marriage (in case you're curious, most said no, since the conservative redneck parents you ally with brainwash their offspring young and allow their ignorance to be passed through generations). After school that day, we had organized a debate on the issue, with teacher supervision. Yet as we congregated when the time came, we were shooed into the VP office where we were told to wait for our supervisor. The VP (Ms. Casto) walked out and asked what we were doing there, and we told her.
"Are you the same kids that walked around at lunch taking a poll on gay marriage?"
"Yes," we responded. She then informed us that an offended (bigoted) parent had called and complained, and we would not be able to do our debate because people would object. The mouths of all participants, for and against, dropped, and because of the butthurt of one ignorant asshole, we hung our heads and slunk out, crushed.
The fact of the matter is that, once again, you degenerates sided with ignorance and bigotry, resulting in an offense of the most crucial and important right in our country. A parent wanted to shelter her precious baby from the real world and continue the never-ending generational chain of bigotry through brainwashing at extremely young ages, and you allowed for it. Whether out of agreement of convenience, you sided with everything that's wrong with this world. People who breed hate and try sheltering children from other ways of life are unfit to be parents, and any bitch who supports them is unfit to be an educator. For what you taught my friends and I, impressionistic kids, was that it's okay to silence the voices that need to be heard, that it's okay to be shit-scared of a bunch of rednecks and do the easy thing by doing the wrong thing, that it's entirely acceptable to respect and be exposed to only one point of view.
Your types are on a moral high-horse, yet you do what you do because you're so insecure in your fragile ways, so shit-scared of letting go of your mother's tits, that you close the door on a more tolerant and rational world.
I am glad I didn't follow in your steps. I'm glad that I am able to step out of my comfort zone an challenge my beliefs to gain a keener insight to the world. And this world is dark and cruel, yes, but it's real - and while nobody may ever know any Absolute Truth, I am much more in tune to the world's truths than you could ever dream of. While I don't believe in the afterlife, I will close my eyes for the last time and fall into an eternal slumber peacefully, knowing that my efforts weren't futile. But you and the unfortunate children who learned from you will be in total darkness and die completely stranded from the world that was your stranger, and you'll have lived only for fear, and have never truly belonged anywhere. And the world will forget you, oh yes, because you never knew it and have no chance of immortality. Just another forgotten corpse to be tossed into a mass grave of nobody worth knowing. Not even your shadow stands a chance.
Heaven and hell aren't where you, they're how you get there.
Fuck you,
Kaytee.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
I am pro-life.
How can anybody look into the eyes of a stranger who poses no threat to them, see the pleading and the thirst for life, and then shoot them dead? How can anybody take the life of a child who has not been given the opportunity to decide for himself what is good and evil? People who can do this have no conscience. People who can do this have no regard for their fellow humans' right to live, and thus do not quite deserve to live.
With these strong opinions, how can I be anti-life, and what does the "pro-life" movement suggest? Do they consider me to have the conscience of a sociopath? But, I declare, an unborn fetus is not a person; it is not a person, at least, until it is sentient and can possibly survive outside the womb, which occurs at the beginning of the third trimester (1.4% of abortions occur at or after this point). Until then, it cannot feel basic emotions, physical pain, nor can it understand mortality.
I insist that I am pro-life, then. I have a conscience and I do not think anybody should be killed for no purpose. I am not evil. I can look into a stranger's eyes and feel the life they live for in my heart. I want everyone to feel wanted and loved and to enjoy their only opportunity to exist. They are people. They want existence.
There is too much unnecessary suffering. There are too many children being born into a world that treats them wickedly. They are their own people now and should be given a chance. But no more unhappy children should be brought here unwanted. Before they know what misery is, make it so they'll never have to feel such a way. Children should be loved by parents and family. They deserve nothing less.
I am pro-choice because I can step into the shoes of an average woman - a woman with no more good or evil in her than the rest of us - and understand her pain. I can imagine myself as one of the millions of children who were born homeless. What can these "pro-lifers" do except condemn everybody, stamp their heels for every fetus yet ignore the plights of those already born, and make assertions solely based on their personal feelings rather than stopping to take a look at the condition their world is in?
I am indeed pro-life. But at the same time, I am pro-choice. My mind is big enough to hold both concepts.
Every year, 14,050,000 children still grow up as orphans and age out of the system.
Every 2.2 seconds, another orphan child ages out with no family to belong to and no place to call home.
In Ukraine and Russia, 10-15% of children who age out of an orphanage commit suicide before age 18. 60% of the girls are lured into prostitution. 70% of the boys become hardened criminals.*
Be pro-life: find homes for the children that are already born, and don't bring any more misery into the world. Many families can't have children and want some, but there are already millions to choose from.
*http://www.hfgf.org/statistics.pdf
With these strong opinions, how can I be anti-life, and what does the "pro-life" movement suggest? Do they consider me to have the conscience of a sociopath? But, I declare, an unborn fetus is not a person; it is not a person, at least, until it is sentient and can possibly survive outside the womb, which occurs at the beginning of the third trimester (1.4% of abortions occur at or after this point). Until then, it cannot feel basic emotions, physical pain, nor can it understand mortality.
I insist that I am pro-life, then. I have a conscience and I do not think anybody should be killed for no purpose. I am not evil. I can look into a stranger's eyes and feel the life they live for in my heart. I want everyone to feel wanted and loved and to enjoy their only opportunity to exist. They are people. They want existence.
There is too much unnecessary suffering. There are too many children being born into a world that treats them wickedly. They are their own people now and should be given a chance. But no more unhappy children should be brought here unwanted. Before they know what misery is, make it so they'll never have to feel such a way. Children should be loved by parents and family. They deserve nothing less.
I am pro-choice because I can step into the shoes of an average woman - a woman with no more good or evil in her than the rest of us - and understand her pain. I can imagine myself as one of the millions of children who were born homeless. What can these "pro-lifers" do except condemn everybody, stamp their heels for every fetus yet ignore the plights of those already born, and make assertions solely based on their personal feelings rather than stopping to take a look at the condition their world is in?
I am indeed pro-life. But at the same time, I am pro-choice. My mind is big enough to hold both concepts.
Every year, 14,050,000 children still grow up as orphans and age out of the system.
Every 2.2 seconds, another orphan child ages out with no family to belong to and no place to call home.
In Ukraine and Russia, 10-15% of children who age out of an orphanage commit suicide before age 18. 60% of the girls are lured into prostitution. 70% of the boys become hardened criminals.*
Be pro-life: find homes for the children that are already born, and don't bring any more misery into the world. Many families can't have children and want some, but there are already millions to choose from.
*http://www.hfgf.org/statistics.pdf
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Land of the Free
My freedom is fenced by high expectations
And for years I've yearned for a little salvation
In the land of the free, how can I be
Individualistic?
Apparently it's an autonomy
That's far too concerned with economy
Thus we've become, except for some,
Far too materialistic.
Ironic that in this democracy,
I've never seen such hypocrisy
Freedom's our guise, but much of it's lies,
We're all just idealistic.
Americans have the mentality
That theirs is the only morality
Stop being blind, open your mind
It's risky to be narcissistic.
Once, people arrived to escape persecution
The New World it seemed was the greatest solution
If we've come so far, to me it's bizarre
That as a people we're unaltruistic.
Is it strange that I seem to want to be saved
From the land of the free and the home of the brave?
In the land of the free, how can I be
Individualistic?
And for years I've yearned for a little salvation
In the land of the free, how can I be
Individualistic?
Apparently it's an autonomy
That's far too concerned with economy
Thus we've become, except for some,
Far too materialistic.
Ironic that in this democracy,
I've never seen such hypocrisy
Freedom's our guise, but much of it's lies,
We're all just idealistic.
Americans have the mentality
That theirs is the only morality
Stop being blind, open your mind
It's risky to be narcissistic.
Once, people arrived to escape persecution
The New World it seemed was the greatest solution
If we've come so far, to me it's bizarre
That as a people we're unaltruistic.
Is it strange that I seem to want to be saved
From the land of the free and the home of the brave?
In the land of the free, how can I be
Individualistic?
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Advanced Global Personality Test
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
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Trait Snapshot
messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous
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Oh great. Does this make me a failure of a human being? Heh. My trait snapshot is, saddeningly, somewhat accurate and seems to only say bad things about me: messy, irritable, somewhat depressive, emotionally sensitive, not a leader (but not a follower), weird, low self control, second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, not sure about weakness (mentally, I'm still unsure what that includes), strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with dark side of life, rash, anti-authority, heart over mind, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer are all kinda accurate. Does this thing only focus on negative traits? I know I'm nice and open-minded and accepting. I know I'm funny and shameless and not easily abashed (though still quite shy).
The terms that aren't very representative of me are fragile, worrying, paranoid, feeling invisible, vain (wait, you know what, I take that back: I am kinda vain, I just try to closet it), low self concept (though I'm not quite sure what that means either) and unadventurous. I am most CERTAINLY adventurous... I'm just not giving many opportunities to be so! I'd like to be though! Life just gets so DULL, and I despise routine, and maybe I'm all these things because the same thing over and over again is kinda killing my spirit. I like to imagine myself post-high school, funny, carefree, intelligent. But is that just who I want to be, or do I really have the potential to be that person? Will everything change once I learn about true independence?
The Peter Pan complex thing, for which I scored 50%, was kinda a big deal a few months ago: if I'd taken this assessment then, I might have been 70%, but now I'm beginning to get eager to just live life and get old and die already!
Even though the thought of dying and not existing (in my head, that is) still kinda scares me... although I'm not quite afraid of death so much as I am afraid of dying young. If I was 80, bring it on. But I'm only 16, I still have a lot to do.
P.S. I read the descriptions of some of the traits above (they're blue and underlined, which means they are links, obviously), and I noticed that the person who created it doesn't know how to spell "weird." Personality tests are often easily inaccurate, but because the idiot can't spell "weird," I take these results much less seriously.
P.S.S. I kinda take pride in having a 90% score for "sexuality." If there was anything in my life I love more than life, it'd be sex and such.
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