A Deep Look Within
Describe your personality.: Lately, I've been optimistic and extremely playful, living life in the moment.
Define what beauty means to you.: Uh....well beauty is subjective, and the saying "beauty is in the eye of the beholder" is quite true.
Describe your appearance overall.: On the chubby side, short light brown hair, black-framed glasses, freckled.
Describe your current appearance.: Well...I'm wearing a shirt with an elephant on it...jeans...glasses...and I look as I do every day, except it's one in the morning.
Name a pet peeve.: Adults who think that teenagers think they know everything. See: my mother.
Find your perfect place. Describe it.: Jacuzzis, man. Jacuzzis.
What is the relationship like with your friends?: With Selena...we know ALMOST everything about each other. We have our arguments. Ha. I'm usually very nice to my other friends, unless I'm in a bad mood.
Inner peace comes one step at a time. Name a step.: Uh. Well realising that thing about subjective beauty. I think. And also using logic to solve your problems, and not kidding yourself about stuff.
Think about or dream up your significant other. Describe their aura.: I don't really know...he's very friendly. Ha, I'm not good at this aura crap.
What value do you believe in most?: Uh. I don't know. Um...my Christian values. HAHA! Just kidding. Dude, I don't even know. They change according to my mood.
Look into your own eyes for a second. What do you see?: Okay. Let's do this. I see...green, and behind that, a mind that is currently in sync with appearance...ratty. HAHAHA. Nah.
Describe your smile.: It depends on whether or not I am bloated. I am currently NOT bloated, so my smile is small and way too sweet. "Cute". But when I'm bloated...it's HIDEOUS!!! HAAAA!!
Who or what do you live for?: Freddie Mercury. And also writing. And shit like that.
Describe your family.: Huge and diverse. My mom's side is mostly a bunch of white Catholic people, except some are liberal and some aren't. My dad's side: LOTS of different personalities.
Define music.: To be honest, most of it sucks, but that's only because I listen to Queen in depth, and EVERYTHING sucks compared to Queen.
What's the most important lesson you've learned in your life?: I wish I knew the answer, but I don't. I'll just say...that some people have their reasons for believing in something, and some don't, and I should assume the first...at first
Describe your culture.: Uh. "American". Well, I've got a lot of European influence. The culture I am most familiar with is Mexican culture and American culture.
Describe your quirks.: Wow, I have a million. My laugh is definitely quirky. Everything about me is a fucking quirk. Ask anyone. And I'm proud of it. Well, most of it.
What's the most important lesson /anyone/ should learn?: Nah, I don't know. I think little kids should realise that they're very lucky since they're experiencing the best times of their lives.
Name a destination you want to arrive to.: Uh. A physical destination? Garden Lodge.
Look up towards the sky. What word comes to your mind?: Ironically, "God" does, even though I don't believe in god. Sky is just a godly thing. Ha.
Define love.: Love is when all of your obsessions are undermined by a particular person or thing, which you aren't obsessed with. Heh. When I love somebody more than Freddie Mercury.
What's the best advice you can give the generation of tomorrow?: Be logical at all times. Also, be skeptical of all that you believe in. And adults aren't as smart as they let on. Don't fuck humanity over. My generation has done enough.
What's the best way to describe how you love as an individual?: Wow. Like, romantic love? Dude, I can't answer this question. It's one of those things I just can't answer.
Define home.: Somewhere I WANT to live. Like Selena's house. Or my room.
What keeps people from appreciating life?: Seeing the bad sides of EVERYTHING and not connecting enough with nature. Sounds a lot like me.
Define peace.: No need nor want to cause trouble, or be involved in it. Loving yourself and everybody around you.
How do you see the world?: As a beautiful thing that is dying slowly and painfully.
How do you wish you saw the world?: As a beautiful thing that will survive its unfortunate human infestation. Ha.
How would you like to live?: A little less selfish and pessimistic, definitely.
Are you an introvert or extrovert?: Intro-extrovert. Extremely shy around family/strangers/mere acquaintances. INSANELY LOUD AND OUTGOING with friends and people I'm naturally comfortable with.
What's one of the biggest issues you're going through currently?: Currently? Probably the fact that my mom is an ageist bitch who undermines my humanity and intelligence because of my teendom.
Overall, what do you believe in?: Not much. I DON'T believe in god, miracles, love at first sight, one "true love", and a whole bunch of other things. I am by nature a non-believer.
What defines your beauty as an individual?: This is cliche, but I'll say my imagination. It's true though.
Who are the three most trusted people you know?: Selena; Freddie Mercury, except he's dead, and so of course he won't betray me. Except by, of course, being dead; I'm not sure there is a third.
Would you ever wait for somebody for years?: It depends on the context.
Do you believe in a higher power?: No sir.
If you do, do you stand in awe of this higher power?: If there is one, I can't say I'd be very impressed. It's pretty despotic and cruel and contradictory.
What is the worst type of pain?: The pain of causing intense emotional pain to somebody I care about. I'm not even kidding.
What people would you take to live on a private island with you?: That are alive...Selena...and that's pretty much it. I think. I might enjoy a few visits from other friends.
Have you had sexual intercourse?: Yep.
Do you enjoy having sexual intercourse?: Well, it's only occurred once, but...I'm sure that if I did have it more often, I would.
If you had to have sexual intercourse with a musician of choice, who?: Freddie Mercury, what the fuck kind of question is that? DUH.
If you had to have sexual intercourse with an actor/actress of choice, who?: Oh jesus. Uh....dude. Does The Amazing Atheist count? I mean, he's not acting, and he's only YouTube but still. He's so fucking....sexy?
Define good and evil.: Good is love and peace, evil is destruction and hurt. Unless it's destruction of evil.
Define knowledge.: Lack of ignorance.
Define consciousness.: Awake, but unaware. It makes sense actually. When you're awake, your mind is too busy to be aware of simple things. It's when you're subconscious that things hold more meaning
Do we have a free-will, or are we governed by fate?: Free will, dude. Fate is yet another thing I don't believe it.
If actions are stronger than words, why is the pen mightier than the sword?: Wow, I've never heard that before. It's beautiful. Probably because the pen knows the truth, whereas the sword only pokes at the obvious.
Would you kill one person to save a thousand?: Sure. It depends on who it is though. If it were a stranger...yep. Someone I love very dearly...nope. Me....indeed.
Love or money, which is better?: Uh. Love, as embarrassing as it is to admit. HA!
If you could describe a perfect life with just three words, what would they: Difficult question. Unignorant, seeing, and spiritual. I'm not very spiritual, but I can imagine it must be great. I should try being Buddhist again.
Is it wrong to love yourself?: On the contrary, it's wrong to NOT love yourself. It's when you don't love yourself that you don't love anybody else.
How do you gain wisdom and knowledge?: By logic and rationality, my friend. That's ALL. IT. BOILS. DOWN. TO.
If you found out the meaning of life, would you share it for free, keep it: Uh. Share it with people who deserve to know it. Unless it isn't very important, and isn't very happy-making either.
Is the human race essentialy good?: Hm. Well. No, I don't think it is. The majority of people I have met are "good", but evil is toxic and the best of people can have bad, but the worst of people can lack good.
Does wisdom come with age or experience?: Experience, dude. FUCK age. Seriously, I'm not even kidding when I say that I am probably wiser than my mom. She is just another human who DOESN'T USE LOGIC!!!!!!
Do all questions have an answer?: Yes, but many of them we can't find. Well, wait a minute. Okay, yes, they do.
Is it good to know your enemies or better to believe you have none?: Yeah, probably to know them, or you might get stabbed in the back. Ignorance is NOT bliss, you idiots.
Are you important? Do you really matter?: DUDE, I LOVE YOU, AND I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT THIS. Probably not to the world, but I matter to SOMEBODY, and I contribute SOMETHING, so I am.
If you could change gender for one day, would you do it?: Uh, why not? I'm pretty tomboyish as it is.
What is the difference between meek and weak?: Toughie. I'll say that while the weak are always meek, the meek aren't always weak. Actually, the weak AREN'T always meek!! Wow. Truly a toughie.
Do you think that physical pleasures and material drives are evil?: Uh, no. Orgasms aren't evil, I don't care what anybody says. Material drives...maybe. It depends. But dude, physical pleasures exist for a reason.
Do you believe that we are born into original-sin?: I don't believe in "sin". And what even IS "original sin".
Who or what is the biggest enemy of the mankind?: Nature...though I'll also say that mankind is the biggest enemy of mankind. I'm not even kidding.
Are we obsessed with all the wrong things in this world?: Sometimes. Then again, obsession can't be healthy. I should know.
What tree are you?: If I were a tree, I would probably be that big one in my front yard with allll the leaves. One that can hide, but isn't hidden.
What animal are you?: I have no idea. Probably a guard dog - loyal to the people it trusts, but snarling at the people it doesn't like.
What motor vehicle are you?: Ah, fuck. I dunno. Don't care enough.
Who's your favorite philosopher?: Siddhartha Guatama. In other words, the Buddha.
What is the reason for punishment?: Doing something that people socially "above" you disapprove of...even if it's not wrong. They're just fuckers.
What is your concept about life after death?: Don't believe it. Ha. I just believe we just...die, and don't exist. Which sucks, dude. It's a scary thought.
Is education the filling of a pail, or the lighting of a fire?: I guess...lighting of a fire.
Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?: The walker chooses the path, but after many paths choose the walker. It depends on your mindset and strength.
What are you grateful for today?: I'm grateful that I'm not a stupid dumb-ass who doesn't know how to think for herself, that's what.
Do you consider yourself as a philosopher?: Yes.
Do you believe that man has a soul?: No
Are you a perpetual consumer, or can you get by with little?: I am a consumer, dude.
Has your mind changed about right and wrong? As you got older?: Well...it hasn't flipped completely, but my perception of right and wrong just became more in depth and matured. And logical. I've cast some things aside.
Do you consider yourself better than the next person?: Well of course, it depends on the next person.
Can a fact be false?: Well if it's false, it isn't fact. For instance, I know for a fact god doesn't exist, but if I am false, it is no longer a fact, nor has it ever been one.
What would you choose to do if you were not afraid?: Tell a great deal of people off, when usually I hold my tongue.
What one thing would make this day better for you?: I would really like to get out of the house.
Does everything in the world have an opposite?: Let's see. I don't believe it does. What is the opposite of tit? Non-tit? Ass? I don't think so. Message me if I'm wrong.
How free do you think that you are as a person?: We're all free to do as we wish, but it comes with consequences, regardless of how unjust it is.
Define "Race".: A competition in which one party strives to reach a goal or destination before another party. A species. Humanity isn't divided into races, it IS a race, dammit. Fuck you!
Do you prefer the idea of free will to that of fate?: Fuck yeah.
When are we grown up?: When reality suddenly becomes sharp and in focus. I've grown up (well, I think so...my mom would argue), and I'm not kidding when I say that I remember seeing everything prior with a fuzz at the edges.
Do you honour your father and mother?: Meh, that relationship is kinda bogus. As of now, I respect my father more. He hasn't really done anything to betray my trust or insult my worth.
Do you love your siblings?: Uh, no.
What is most needed in the world right now?: LOGIC!!!!!! VISION!!!!! MOTIVE!!!
Are there universal standards for all humanity?: I'll say there are a couple, and they're quite simple and agreeable. One, everybody is vulnerable to something. Two, The Golden Rule, dude. Even though I break it sometimes.
What is your current profession?: I am not "professional" at anything, but I will say that I am a writer.
Have you ever tasted your tears?: Yes
When was the last time that you cried?: Hm. I don't really remember....it's been a while.
What talent would you like to possess?: I know this sounds lame, but I would like to be a good singer, or a good pianist. Not for fame, but just because I love that sorta shit.
Have you ever been betrayed by a friend?: Yep.
Have you ever known someone who commited suicide?: I'm not sure. It'd suck if I did and I forgot. Ouch.
Which cartoon character would make a good president?: Ha! Well...I don't watch cartoons, except Family Guy, and the Petoria one was a bit worrying. HA! If life was better, Peter's presidency would be beneficial.
What would you do if your best friend told you they were homosexual?: Be surprised since I'm pretty fucking sure that if she was, she would have come out to me, since I came out to HER in 6th fucking grade. Then I'd get used to it.
Are you fo or against the death penalty?: Uh. Against, I think. I just think that the person killing somebody for a vicious crime should be the person seeking revenge. Even though vengeance is so not my thing.
Do you think polygamy should be made legal in the United States of America?: If it's between two consenting adults, fuck yeah. Although, I think "adult" should go down to fifteen, or at least sixteen.
At what age do you think a person is ready to begin having sex?: It depends on the person. When they're mature enough to be responsible. If you forget the condom, you're not ready, bitch. I'm 15, and more than ready. Maybe.
What physical trait usually attracts the opposite sex?: I'll say boobs. Except when you have that, other physical qualities become important. I've got huge tits, and yet guys aren't knocking my door down. I just "don't got it". Ha.
What is your favorite quote?: "Now there's more to do than watch my sailboat glide, and every day can be my magic carpet ride."
It's been a couple of weeks since I posted a blog, so I just wanted to update it. I'm writing a...synopsis thing for a novel, though it's not quite a synopsis. It doesn't really spend any time at all summarising the plot of the story; contrarily, it just describes the society in which the character lives from different aspects. Societal aspects are the most interesting, but I'm not having so much fun with the economics, and so kind of just...stopped. I'll finish eventually but...not now. 
